Life, New Years and Such

Have you ever stopped to reflect on what your ten year old self would think of you today? This year of 2016 and all it's challenges (I hate you Celiac) has finally come to an end. I had a lot of time over the holidays to stop and breathe. To refocus and to rest. I began to realize that life gets in the way of a lot of important things. It's not so much to say that life stops being good, it's just that the good sometimes becomes overwhelming and becomes bad. A job is important, relationships are important, heck - bills are important! But when they become EVERYTHING, it is easy to lose yourself in the mix, especially when everyone around you is focused on real life problems too. 

I am not who I thought I would be when I was ten. Inside, I'm still there, I can feel it. But along the way I make compromises. Tiny little changes, nothing significant. I stay later at work to ensure I keep my job. I make concessions in relationships to keep the peace. I live places convenient to responsibilities rather than where I really want to. I lose sleep to keep up with life's demands even when my body is desperate to rest. It's like turning the steering wheel a tiny fraction. As you're driving it doesn't matter, you're still going in the general direction. Until, it starts to add up like a heavy snow fall that happened one tiny snowflake at a time and suddenly you are off the road and headed for a ditch (I'm in a very dramatic mood today, can you tell!?).  

So this week, month or year, whenever you can squeeze yourself out a break from real "life", I encourage you to stop and resurrect your ten your old (they're happy to come back, really). How do you do this? As such...  

1. Take some time for you - just you. Visit a coffee shop, take a walk, kick everyone out of the house and secure the doors with something heavy! 

2. Reflect on what is most important to you. And take inventory on how much time those priorities are getting. Do you sacrifice your health for the sake of others? Do you spend as much time as you want with your loved ones? Are you enjoying any good ole plain fun? 

3. Think like a kid. What would you do if you could (screw time, money and judgment)? What would you say to the people in your life if you knew they'd take it exceedingly well (are you holding back what you feel to "keep the peace" cause that sh*t will eat you alive)! 

4. Add one hour to your week to do what YOU want to do. It may be sleeping, it may be visiting a loved one, it may be going to a playground and running around like an idiot. Don't stop and apologize for what you want to do - don't come up with reasons it won't work - don't ask permission, just go! 

5. Repeat often. This isn't about being selfish, it's about being you! The best you possible! When you connect with yourself again, it radiates out from you and better supports all the other responsibilities of real life! Encourage others to do the same.... We could all use a little more childlike fun so make your ten your old self proud. And Happy New Year. 

Lips Like Mine

The hardest part about this celiac and DH journey is that you never really know when you might be on the receiving end of a tiny trace of gluten. Did someone in the house have a sandwich and forget to wipe up? Did a waiter accidentally set your plate down for a second while grabbing a loaf of bread for another table, somehow dropping crumbs onto your meal?

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How can you ever stop all the chaos of gluten particles from entering your world?!?! The truth is, unless you want to live alone as a hermit (which I have considered!), you can't!

So, the best alternative is to find humor in the inevitable whenever possible. One such opportunity came when I woke up and discovered my lips had blistered again, this time swelling massively at the same time. I had literally turned into Daffy Duck! If EVER a reason, this was the best reason to call in sick! You can't really imagine what you might look like with a botched Botox job but now I will never have to!

And I got this, for FREE

This is Dermatitis Herpetiformes folks. You don't choose it (and never would), it chooses you...

Potato Kale Soup

For some reason, I love potato soup. I didn't care what I ended up with when I started cooking this soup as long as I had nice chunks of potato waiting for me at the bottom of my bowl. Fortunately, it turned out to be good so I'm sharing it!

Ingredients: 

5 cups of water 

1 small can unsweetened coconut milk

2-3 small russet potatoes, cubed

1 large onion sliced thick

3 cups carrots sliced thin

2 cups kale

1-2 teaspoons salt

1/2 teaspoon pepper

1-2 teaspoons garlic powder

1-2 teaspoons onion powder

1-2 teaspoons paprika  

2 hard boiled eggs if desired

Put potatoes on high heat in water with 1 tsp salt and bring to a boil for ten minutes. 

Bring heat to low and add onion, carrots and spices. Most spices should be to your taste so start at the low end and add more as needed to finish. 

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Add coconut milk when mixture is no longer boiling. Stir for five minutes, cover and simmer low for 40 minutes. 

Add kale and cover to simmer low for twenty minutes. Add more spices as needed. 

I like to add some sliced hard boiled eggs when serving for protein and scallions to finish. Serve hot and enjoy!

 

 

Whole Food Challenges

The cool thing about going on a whole foods diet is the realization that even what I considered to be a "healthy" diet before had room for improvement. And when I say improvement, I mean like trash to treasure level!  

My weekly shopping trips now had me focused on 1/16th of the store at best! As you walk through aisle after aisle, it's eye opening to realize how much of our food comes in a box! And worse still, how many of those boxes have ingredients that are unidentifiable.

It's hard to believe that eating only real food would present a challenge but it's true. That fact alone helped motivate me to keep going! Aren't we supposed to be eating real food??? So just in case, you're thinking of joining the few, the proud, the hangry... here are my tips for starting (and finishing) a whole food challenge. 

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1. Meal prep. No joke, decide what you're going to eat in advance and don't depend on any fast restaurant options to save you in your time of need.  

2. Try not to cry. Believe me, you will want to cry but no one ever died trying to eat healthy. Well, they may have but chances are the healthy part was unrelated. 

3. Respect the process. You may face withdrawals, headaches, tummy aches, etc. (in this case, refer to step two) but that is actually good! You're giving your body a chance to heal and healing can be painful! 

4. Be gentle with yourself and find other ways to celebrate or relax. Our culture and habits center a lot around food but a night out or glass of wine isn't what matters, it's being with friends and family to begin with! You can do that with water as easily as wine. Or, better still, try a new class or activity together instead of the same old place. Yoga anyone?

5. Enlist friends! Misery loves company! I mean... the more the merrier! And if your friends don't want to suffer along, find a local group or Facebook page. Not only are there nice people out there but hearing others experiences, ideas, recipes, etc. can go a long way when you're thinking about giving up!

Happy eating friends! 

A Whole 30 Journey...

After turning to every doctor, support group and nutritional counselor I could find (and that would listen), I decided something drastic had to be done. I was fighting an uphill battle of symptoms and getting no where fast. Clearly, just "gluten free" wasn't enough, unless the detox period was over three months (of course that was anyone's guess)! 

A common suggestion I had heard, across all the experts I talked to, was to embark on an auto-immune diet for one to two months. The theory as I understood it was that my body may be sensitive (you think!?) and reacting to a NUMBER of inflammatory foods, not just gluten.  By cutting everything out, you allow healing and after that period is done, you can introduce a food in one by one to get to the diet you'll need for the rest of your life. S**t was about to get real. 

Although I would need to be slightly stricter, the closest diet to use as a reference was one called the "Whole 30".  This was a no (added) sugar, no gluten, no dairy, no processed food, no beans, no legumes, no alcohol, no kidding diet. On top of that, I would be restricting anything processed in a factory, eliminating caffeine and remaining pescatarian (a vegetarian who eats fish). 

As a sign of solidarity my boyfriend and brother's girlfriend committed to the 30 days with me. We were the three amigos and together could not fail! Or... so we thought! 

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Extreme Makeover, Part 2!

The hardest part about throwing away everything in your bathroom is the realization that you bought a lot of products along the way that have never seen the light of day. It quickly became obvious that I had made at least a couple dozen product purchases that were completely wasted. As excited as I must have been on their respective purchased dates, they sat in the dark under my sink, completely undisturbed from that day on. I blame T. J. Maxx! 

Regardless, my mom and I began the arduous process of sorting through each and every one toiletry, be it an old favorite or still sealed. 

There were three categories.

1. Clearly identifiable as gluten free on the packaging or through a quick Google search.

2. Clearly NOT gluten free, and

3. Possibly Gluten free AND a favorite product. Meaning at the end of my detox trial, adding them in one at a time might be worth it. There were very few products left in category three...

By the end of the process I had a large pile of products to give away, a fair amount to trash and a few I packaged up to check in on in a month or two. Bonus, I had a VERY clean bathroom.  

In the midst of this Celiac journey, I've realized a couple of things. Priorities really come into focus when they involve your health. Something so easily taken for granted until it's no longer there. I had tried to clean my bathroom out from this mountain of products for years. I knew I wasn't using them all! But at the time they each seemed so important. And I hoarded them accordingly. This time however, I threw that crap away like it was diseased itself. And the next morning when I pulled out my new products, just a few, I used every one. In fact, I enjoyed using every one! There was a genuine satisfaction in the simplicity.  

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The following day an email from Ulta arrived. I was now a "Platinum" member  (I guess that's what a $700 purchase gets you!). But instead of running out to use my new $33 in points, I hit delete on the email. I had everything I needed for now. And I was happy with that. 

 

 

 

Extreme Makeover, part 1!

Have you ever stopped by your local make-up store and picked up a couple fun new items to try? I have! Except instead of a FEW items, I decided to restock every beauty and toiletry product I had.

Why the insanity? Because after weeks of dealing with the constant pain of DH on my face, the embarrassment of looking like my skin was constantly falling off and the final humiliation of my CEO asking if I had "kissed a blowfish", I was willing to try anything.

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Medically, the solution is not to change makeup and shampoos. "Gluten is not absorbed through skin", you'll hear from well intentioned doctors. But practically, shampoo and makeup can accidentally find its way into your mouth when washing your face or hair for example. And after numerous accounts from online blogs and Facebook pages with people saying it helped, why not? I was preparing for a detox diet and  detoxing my products seemed like a logical part of the deal!

So one late Saturday afternoon, my boyfriend and I strolled into Ulta. He carried around a shoulder shopping bag while I started perusing products. Soon we had an army of employees helping us, everyone pulling out their phones to google innocuous ingredients in between squinting at the tiny ingredients list on each product label.

$700 (yes, that's $700 U. S. dollars and no, Ulta does not take promises, Monopoly money or tears as forms of payment)... and three hours later, I was poor AND ready to go home and purge my old product demons.... But that's another story....